my aversion to capitalization

i'm writting from school.  naughty me. 
in case you haven't noticed, i don't really like capitalization.  i don't really know why this is, but i've never liked to capitalize words.  maybe its may way of rebelling against the many annoying teachers saying, 'no, that word is capitalized'.  its not that i don't know how to capitalize, i just choose not to.  plus, its a pain in the ass for my fingers.  it feels unnatural for some reason.  does anyone has have this problem, or am i weird?  screw you, capitalization!

school

well. school has started. and that sucks.  i graduate in like 5 months. omfg. thats so wonderful and so terrifying at the same time.  i mean im super glad to get out of high school and college sounds fun, but it will be hard, and then i have to get a job and be an Adult.  i capitalized 'adult' because its turned into less of a state of being and more of a creature.  adults aren't just grown mature people, they are completely new beings. at least the adults of my generation are.  im not explaining this well.  when i think of being an adult, its not unlike being a martian. some one says 'you'll be an adult soon!', and i go 'whaaaa?! thats like turning into an octopus! i cant do that!'  see what i mean?  it doesnt seem possible.  and yet, it is coming, wether i like it or not.  that is one of the most terrifying thoughts iv had in a while.


if im to be an Adult, i should learn to spell.

kailey

this is me and my best friend kailey.  i figured i should talk about her because she influences almost everything i do.  i honestly think i would have exploded from my emotions by now without her.  she gives the best advice, and i can talk to her about anything.  don't get me wrong, i love all my friends, but i can only talk to certain friends about certain things.  i can talk to kailey about anything.  like, literally, anything.  as you can imagine, she's the first to hear about anything new in my life.  she's also perfect.  you know the type, tall, gorgeous, smart, sings and acts, so much fun, just perfect.  but she's not obnoxious perfect.  usually girls like that are, and piss me off.  i think kailey doesn't annoy me, because she has personality.  she's not perfect and boring, but perfect and interesting.  and sometimes a little ditzy...but i love her anyway.  suffice it to say, if someone is to understand me, they need to understand my best friend.  or at least understand how my best friend influences me.  make sense? 

2011

well, its 2011. i don't feel any different, but i think i should.  it seems like i should feel older, wiser, something...its the year i graduate high school, and start college.  i should feel changed, like a new person.  and i don't.  and i don't know what to do about that.  crap. NOTHING HAS CHANGED!  i still sleep as long as possible, otto still hogs the blankets, and i still don't want to go to school.  or move.  or wake up.  does anyone else feel like this, or is it just me?